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7:16pm: The Suicide Scene
As much as I hate to admit it, I could feel tears threatening to come into my eyes as I wrote this scene. I think with some editing it could be a pretty powerful scene. Well, here it is:

Kevin saw the gun sitting in his fathers closet at the worst possible moment. He hadn't even known his father had owned a gun. His parents were both out, picking up the final things they would need before they moved. He took it out of the closet and walked to his bed, sitting down. He knew he couldn't do it. Yet there he was, a gun in his hands.
_Just put it back Kevin. Put it back and never look at it again. This thing will do you no good._ A voice whispered in Kevins head. He didn't listen. He sat there with the gun in his lap, thinking maybe he could do it. He thought about his fight with Trisha. Thought about how she never wanted to see him again. Thought about how he would probably never see her again after he moved. He had had only one friend that truly cared about him. The only person he knew that cared about him was now gone. He had nothing to live for anymore.
_There are always things to live for. Your parents love you. God loves you. Please Kevin, don't do this._
"My parents don't love me. Neither does God. How could they do this to me? How?" Kevin said aloud.
_It's for the better Kevin, trust in Gods plan. Trust in him. He loves you!_ The voice spoke into Kevins head.
"Oh yea? Then he won't let me kill myself, now will he? Something will happen just before I pull the trigger if he really loves me." Kevin said, putting the gun up to his head, not quite sure if he could really do what he was about to try.
_Please Kevin, don't do this, put the gun down. Think of how many people you will hurt. Think of all the sorrow you will cause._
"Yea, and think of all the pain and sorrow people have put me through," Kevin said, tears streaming down his face. "Dammit, no one understands. Nobody! I can't do this anymore!" Kevin choked through his tears. He thought about Trisha and Joshua, thought about the picture he saw of them holding hands. The picture he saw of them kissing. His throat was clenching up. The phone rang, and Kevin pulled the trigger. In that one moment of excrutiating pain he regretted what he had done. In that one moment he wondered if maybe the person on the other end of the phone was God's gift to him.

10:10pm: I'm actually writing again...
I'm so excited. I'm actually writing again, and sending out stories. Today I sent out a 300 word story to Eggplant literary productions. I've also self-published a novella through LuLu.com. I'm really excited about this one. This is one of my favorite stories that I've written. I ordered my copy yesterday, and my seminary teacher wants to borrow it to read once I get it. I've also e-mailed the local newspaper to see if they want to run a story on a local youth writer who's self published a novella. Wish me luck!

The biggest problem with self-publishing is marketing the book. I've gotten about 150 views to my book, but no one has bought it yet. If I get a story in the paper though, I'm sure there will be lots of people looking. I still have a few more marketing techniques to try. I still need to buy an ISBN number and such for it, but still...

BTW, if any of y'all want to read a free chapter of it then look here: http://www.lulu.com/content/73682

6:32am: Stolen from Alli...

Post anything that you want (in comments), and post it anonymously. Anything. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love -- anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like. Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.

Sure, why not... Don't know how many people read my journal, but yea...

6:22am: Stupid Ice...
So, I've been doing a paper route for the past month, and for the most part it's been perfectly fine, and the money is fantastic to have. But then last week it snowed heavily, and hasn't been more than 20 degrees every morning. Not only is it freezing cold, but there's quite a bit of ice on all the sidewalks. The sidewalks that I have to run on. This morning has been the second time that I've slipped on that stupid ice and hurt some part of my body. Today it was my elbow, which is still hurting at this very moment.

I can only hope that the ice melts soon so I don't have to worry about the invisible stuff.

2:49pm: Made 15K
My brain is officially turned to jelly. I'm done for today.

5:17pm: Day 2 of NaNoWriMo
Update:

I have written a total of 8015 words so far. My goal is for 10K by tonight. I'm gonna try for 150K this month. If that's even possible :P

NaNo has been a great experience so far. Writing so much in so little time is always so exhilarating, and knowing that you're doing it with 50,000 other people makes it oh-so much better.

I don't know how long I can keep up this sleep schedule though... I've been going to bed around 9:30, waking up at 3:45 to do my paper route, then getting back and napping for an hour before starting my day. Well, today I napped for about 4 hours, that helped. Oh well, I'll adjust eventually. I'm young, my body can adjust fairly quickly, lol.

4:14pm: Not long now!!!
Only have to wait another 8 hours, then I'm going to be writing my little heart out :)

11:13am: Crazy Utah weather!
We've been having rain here for, I donno, the past week I think. We've already had 3 or 4 feet of snow in the mountains. Now... It's snowing on the valley floor!!! Already!!! They say we'll get at least another foot in the mountains. But really, it is really good for us. Considering we've been in a drought for a long time, this should help us a bit. It's coming down out there like mad, huuuge snow flakes... Kinda fun actually :)

10:02pm: Okay, I'm officially crazy...
Not only am I doing NaNoWriMo, but I just signed up for ANOTHER challenge. This challenge is to draw/create 10000 square inches of art during... Guess the month!!! November!!! LOL, if this doesn't make me crack, nothing will.

For anyone interested: http://www.artbytheinch.com/

9:08pm: Handwriting Analysis...
This is pretty freaking good! Got the link from Alli, and took it...

( Analysis )

This is really close to how I really am! Especially the emotions part. I really don't show my emotions alot. I think about them in my head, but I don't display them. Except when someone makes me REALLY mad, or REALLY hurts me. Even then, I don't display it as much as other people... The only person who knows I even do this is my best friend, everyone else, I assume, probably does take me as emotionless... Oh well :P

1:00pm: Nano
It's so close!!! 31 days until NaNoWriMo starts, and I'm so excited! The forums open in just a few hours, how cool is that?!

10:09am: My Novel
My NanoWrimo novel is now for sale at http://www.lulu.com/ChrisLeitch

Check it out, you might like it :)

11:27am: Just stuff...
Not much to say, except I started doing musemuggers again! How much fun! I can't believe that I stopped doing that for so long, it's great!

I went walking with my best friend last night, who was kinda down, and we had a really long chat. She's so much fun. It was really great.

Umm, School is going great, history is rather boring, but it has it's exciting parts, hehe, and learning Espanol is fun. I don't know a ton, but I can greet people, ask where things are, basic stuff like that. But I've only been learning about a week and a half so I don't expect more.

Well, not much more to say... The writing is going great lately, and I'm happier than I have been for a long time.

My stupid wisdom teeth(well, at least the one that was hurting) has finally popped in almost all the way. It doesn't hurt much anymore, except the occasional few minutes. Oh yea, and last night when I hit it with my fork while eating. Can you say pain? :P

That's about all that's going on in my life. Over and out! :)

4:46pm: Owwwie...
My wisdom teeth are coming through, and it hurts so freaking bad. My gums are so sore, I can't clench my teeth even a bit because it hurts so bad... I hate this. I wish they would finish coming through so it doesn't hurt any more... And then I have to get them out in January, that's not going to be fun, I'm sure... Owwie :(

11:38pm: haha
THE TEN SUGGESTIONS


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1) You shall have no other Hat before me.

2) You shall not make yourself a Godly Face in the form of a Dog or a Computer or a Laptop.

3) You shall not misuse the Butt of the Cat.

4) Remember Christmas by keeping it Womanly.

5) Honor your Plate and your Food so that you may Write in the Tupperware the lord your god is giving you.

6) You shall not Type Dogs.

7) You shall not Drink Sexy Cats.

8) You shall not Sing Fingers.

9) You shall not Eat Sexy Toads against your neighbor.

10) You shall not Talk thy Clouds CD.


Make your own at http://www.crackbaby.com/godlibs/index.html

6:29pm: Your life is rated:

My life has been rated:
See what your rating is!
Created by bart666

haha, it actually is very true :P I totally agree!

3:55pm: Random stuff
Life is going great right now, I donno, I just feel great! Haven't really been up to much lately, haven't been writing much, but I have a good reason!

I'm writing a game for this contest, and it's taking up most of my time lately. It's really fun! I'm making a remake of the classic game "Scorched Earth" Except its in full 3d.

Girl update: Well, if anything, we're not hanging out as much as we used to, but frankly I think this is a good thing... See, she gets sick of people fairly easily, and I get sick of people too... It gets to the point that when I hang out with someone too much that I start to be bored ALL the time when I'm with them, and this was happening between me and her. We haven't hung out for a while, but we see eachother every morning when we go walking. So we don't see eachother very much lately, but we talk alot more and when we are together we have TONS more fun, so it's all good :)

Well, not much more to say, except I'll try to update more Julia ;)

3:55pm: Random stuff
Life is going great right now, I donno, I just feel great! Haven't really been up to much lately, haven't been writing much, but I have a good reason!

I'm writing a game for this contest, and it's taking up most of my time lately. It's really fun! I'm making a remake of the classic game "Scorched Earth" Except its in full 3d.

Girl update: Well, if anything, we're not hanging out as much as we used to, but frankly I think this is a good thing... See, she gets sick of people fairly easily, and I get sick of people too... It gets to the point that when I hang out with someone too much that I start to be bored ALL the time when I'm with them, and this was happening between me and her. We haven't hung out for a while, but we see eachother every morning when we go walking. So we don't see eachother very much lately, but we talk alot more and when we are together we have TONS more fun, so it's all good :)

Well, not much more to say, except I'll try to update more Julia ;)

9:11am: Update on Woman at the Well and other general life stuff.
I sent it off a few days ago, and yesterday I got my reply. It was rejected. I now have 6 rejection letters, and although I have no acceptances I know that I have to keep getting rejections until I finally do get an acceptance. So, I'm probably going to send it out again to someplace today or tomorrow.

In other news I've been really happy lately. Maybe it's because I've been hanging out with the girl that I like a ton, and hanging out a lot. Maybe it's because she likes me alot too, but either way, I'm still totally happy. Something that I haven't been for a really long time.

Writing hasn't been going too well though, haven't written for a while. But that's because I've been kinda busy.

My sister is getting married this Friday, meaning she moves out to her apartment, meaning that I move upstairs into her room. *Yay for no more downstairs creepiness*

My grandparents and my aunt and uncle from England are coming down tomorrow! It's gonna be awesome! My uncle might go rapelling with us too, it's gonna be so cool!

Next Tuesday me and my family leave for Minneapolis for my brothers wedding. Wow, these next couple months are going to be busy. I'll be offline for a long time after next Tuesday. We'll be home for only a week after Minneapolis, then we're off to.... ENGLAND!!! Yay!!!

We'll be in England for 3 weeks or so, so I won't be on here for a long time. But I'll see y'all when I'm back of course.

9:03am: Sent out a story...
I submitted a story called The Woman at the Well to Fantasy & Science Fiction Magazine.

I'll post updates as soon as I get them.

Now I have the worst part to do, the waiting. Luckily I'm pretty good at forgetting this kind of thing, and so when it comes in the mail I'll be like *Oh yea, I forgot I sent that!* Which makes it kind of fun :)

12:24pm: Drama Drama DRAMA
It's always drama, drama, drama between my brother and his girlfriend, and of course, I always get stuck right in the middle of this. I feel like I'm on one of those soap operas.

( Drama stuff here: )

Now, for the happy part of my life:

I'm SO HAPPY LATELY. I don't know why. I walked back from seminary at the local high-school today and I was just amazed at how beautiful this world is. I just walked and looked at the trees, the flowers, the birds in the sky, the clouds. I love it. I haven't felt this relaxed, calm, and peaceful in ages. I'm amazed. Hopefully this continues for a long, long time.

7:17pm: My friend is doing better...
She's not using me to get at my brother anymore. She's showing that she actually does want to be friends, asking me if I want to hang out with her even though my brother isn't there. She's not randomly quitting out an IM anymore, or any of that stuff. Needless to say, I am much happier. I still cared about her, even when she was doing all that crap, and it hurt that I thought I was losing a friend.

1:24pm: Fuckin pissed.
I am so pissed at my friend. Hell, I can't even call her that, my aquantaince, hereby known as C.

She drives me nuts. She says that I'm her best friend, next to the person she loves, and all that, but she's a liar. Plain and simple. She talks to me over IM, never on the phone, and if we even hang out(only when my brother, the one she loves is there) she hardly even says a word to me. I normally don't say anything, but I can't take it anymore. I am pissed.

She blocks me randomly on IM, doesn't even say why, just does so. Never says hi or bye to me, rants to me, then when I try to make her feel better she tells me "Oh, well thanks for wasting my time." She uses me to get at my brother, because they're not supposed to be together alone until they're 16, well fuck that. I don't give a shit if they're together and doing whatever the hell they want. I don't want to be around her right now.

She drives me nuts. I don't think I want to talk to her for a while, I don't think she'll care. Doubt that she'll say a word about it. She made me feel really embarrassed today over something I said trying to make her feel better because she was depressed, and made it seem like I was just being stupid. Well fuck her. I'm done.

9:56am: April Fools update...

12,120 / 50,000 (24.2%)

Not sure if that code works or not here, but I hope it does. Last half hour I wrote 2032 words, and I'm happy. W00T! ROck on! And thank you again Feath for making this awesome idea. Making us all writing machines, you are. ;)

2:09pm: 1,000 more words...
Just wrote another 1,000 words, putting my total for April Fools at 10,000. I may well go over the 50K count. This month has been good for me so far. I haven't written for so long, and this is really pushing me to do so, and do it alot. I love it, and thanks to Feath for setting this all up!